Khushi’s Epilogue
¨Khushi, did you try the crepes yet? I ordered them especially for you, Arnav told me that they were your favorite when I asked him about desserts…¨
I know that I am blushing as I recall just how he knows that, and quickly turn towards the buffet spread before Anjali Di can see my flaming cheeks.
¨Not yet, Di…but I will. Everything looks delicious and I’m spoiled for choice here!¨
Di laughs before looking around at her husband who has just joined us.
¨It wasn’t entirely my doing, Khushi. Shyam was in charge of planning the menu too, and the decorations were entirely his idea.¨
I allow my gaze to wander around their beautifully lit backyard where the glow of myriad fairy-lights competes with the diffused light of the moon . The white tablecloths and flower arrangements on the buffet tables are tasteful and elegant, and the menu is impeccable. Couples and families are scattered around the large lawn area, and the murmur of conversation floats around us like the night mist that is just beginning to descend.
The entire effect is magical , and I find myself overwhelmed that Di and Shyam have gone to all this trouble on our behalf.
¨I know that, Di…but really, there was no need. You didn’t have to do all this…not when you are getting ready to leave for India…¨
¨That’s exactly why I wanted to do this, Khushi! Our India trip starts next week and if all goes well, we will have our little bundle of joy when we return. And God knows that we will never have time for all this then…besides, it is your one year anniversary. How could we let that pass?¨
I smile back at her, amazed at how much she has come to mean to me in such a short span of time. In the four months since our return from Greece, I have visited her often, and we have grown closer…closer than my own sister is to me at the moment.
Payal…
The memory of her name brings a strange ache to my chest. I recall the one stilted phone call she made to me a few weeks back, in which she attempted to apologize for her behavior. I had answered her as best as I could, but it was then that I had finally recognized the startling truth.
There was no going back.
The relationship between me and Payal had been irrevocably altered, and we could never go back to the way things had been between us. And I also realized that both Amma and Arnav had been right, after all.
When she had been forced to handle things on her own, Payal had been left with no choice but to grow up, and grow up fast. The composure in her voice and the very fact that she has called me of her own volition is proof of that fact. That brief call made me realize that she was finally on the right track, one slow, torturous step at a time.
The only source of disquiet comes from Amma, who tells me that although Payal’s treatment has been going well, her relations within her husbands’ home continue to be soured. Her mother in law hasn’t exactly been giving her a hard time, but it seems like the past continues to haunt Payal even to this day. Akash’s mother hasn’t been able to move past what has occurred, and it is unlikely that she ever will. The only ray of hope is Akash himself, who is still a steadfast , dependable presence in my sister’s life.
Against all my instincts, I have tried very hard to keep to my decision about not interfering in her life…and I have succeeded. No matter what happens in her personal life now, Payal is on her own. Although this fact still causes me unease, I remind myself that it is for her own good.
Her life is now her own, just as it should be.
¨Earth to Khushi!¨
Di’s laughing voice snaps me out of my introspection, and I realize that she has been saying something to me all this while.
¨Sorry Di, I was…¨
¨Thinking about my brother?¨
She laughs at my crimson cheeks, and her husband rolls his eyes.
¨You still think that your brother is quite the catch, don’t you? Don’t worry, Khushi. I know that life with that workaholic brother in law of mine can’t be all that easy, can it? ¨
I shake my head, marveling at the change in this relationship as well. It appears that the passage of time has done it’s bit in convincing Shyam Jha that I am not a threat to Arnav after all, and he has thawed considerably in his behavior. Although he is still reserved around me most of the time, there are instances like these when he reveals his subtle sense of humor, reassuring me that all is well between us.
Before I can answer, Di turns to her husband.
¨He treats her like a queen, can’t you see that? And she deserves it, of course. In all the ways that matter, these two are made for each other. I knew it the first time we met,Khushi…I can’t believe it’s been one year already!¨
Her bright smiles are infectious, and I find myself thanking the almighty that she smiles so often these days. The past few months have not been easy for them as they tried to start the lengthy adoption procedure here before being disheartened by the wait-time. It was then that they had started thinking about adopting a baby from India, and this trip had been planned after an adoption agency in Mumbai had informed them that a mother of two had signed on for her third pregnancy, a child she no longer wanted. The Jhas had been eager and ready to accept this welcome gift, and had immediately made plans to fly out to Mumbai.
But before they did that, they had insisted on throwing us this party on our anniversary, one that was being held at their home. Di has insisted on keeping the details a surprise, and only the guest list was something that we had been consulted on. There were friends of both our families in attendance tonight, along with a few of Arnav’s colleagues and my friends from University.
Also at this party is Naniji, who has been here from the past one month and is now returning to India with Di.
I look across at her now, her ivory silk saree gleaming in the moonlight. Through the past one month, she and I have grown close too, a fact that I am thankful for. The two weeks that she had spent in our mansion were unforgettable ones, and I find myself missing her cheerful voice now that she is spending these last few days in Di’s house.
Yes, the past four months have been good for me.
I have gained a family, and my professional life has never looked better.
But most of all, the relationship that I prize above all else has taken on a new dimension altogether.
My eyes meet his across the lawn, and I know that he has been watching me for quite some time.
Dressed in a night-black suit, Arnav Singh Raizada looks like a sleek, suave predator, his gaze devouring me from afar.
However, I have no intention of letting myself get caught…yet.
Deliberately, I turn back to Di.
¨Yes, it’s been an incredible year, Di. And I hope that the coming one brings you all that you have ever wished for…¨
I lean forward to give her a hug, and she laughs as she holds me close for a moment.
¨I hope so, Khushi…I really do!¨
In that instant, I know that someone has joined our little group.
Someone who has the power to make me tremble with need…someone who sets me on fire with a glance.
¨Khushi?¨
I turn slowly to face him, and take in a sharp breath at the banked desire in his eyes.
¨There’s someone I want you to meet. Come…¨
He offers me his hand, and I take it reluctantly.
Touching him at the moment is not part of my plan for tonight, but I no longer have any option.
The warmth of his body burns through the silk-chiffon material of my ankle length dress, and I struggle to keep up with him while my feet are strapped into four inch stilettos.
The next half hour passes in a daze as he introduces me to several people, and then we meet others who I know already from the party we had thrown in our own mansion. Food and drinks are being passed around again, and I try to sample everything that Di has chosen with such care.
But is hard…very hard.
I find it impossible to maintain a semblance of calm when my body is so attuned to every movement of his, and my skin is prickling with his proximity.
And judging by his hooded glances and deliberate, glancing touches, he knows it too.
Taking a deep breath, I make my excuses and move towards Naniji, unwilling to give in so soon.
He doesn’t follow me immediately, although I can still feel his eyes upon me , burning on the bare skin of my back.
I cannot wait for this evening to end.
An hour later, that moment has finally arrived, and we say our goodbyes to Di, Shyam and Nani after all the guests have left. I sneak in a look at Sheetal and Laksmiji, both of whom are now asleep.
When I walk back outside, Arnav is standing beside the Porsche, and Dhruv is already seated inside.
¨Ready?¨
I nod in some trepidation, and then slide inside, leaning back against the black leather as he gets in from the other side. Dhruv pulls out at once, and I wave at Di until she’s out of sight.
And then we’re alone, and I feel that change in the atmosphere again.
I resolutely keep my gaze fastened on the passing vista outside, and I sense his growing puzzlement as he tries to figure out just why I am being so elusive today.
Patience, Mr. Raizada.
I don’t say that aloud, but I want to.
I know that he is frustrated…but then, so am I.
The past four months have been an exercise in patience, to say the least. The leashed desire between us is impossible to ignore, but he has respected my wishes by not demanding more than I am willing to give.
And yet, we have come so close to giving in…
My face heats up in the cool confines of the car as I recall the one time we had ended up kissing passionately in the back seat of the limo before he had drawn back abruptly, lowering the privacy screen before being overcome by temptation again.
And then there was the other time in my bedroom, where we had found ourselves in an intimate embrace against the door before he had stopped things from going any further.
These restrictions aren’t solely mine, of course.
When we returned from Greece, we had talked again about our physical relationship and how it tended to overshadow everything else. It was then that we had made the mutual decision to abstain, at least until we had a chance to allow the other aspects of our relationship to grow and mature as they should.
And that plan has worked…to an extent.
I have seen the changes in Arnav, subtle…but present all the same. He is back to being the man I fell in love with…and yet, there is a difference. He seems more open, more willing to go with the flow…willing to take chances and allow things to lead where they may. He doesn’t stay back at work later than he has to, and we spend our evenings and weekends together , just like we used to before.
And this has led me to realize that my husband is just like an untamed falcon…a magnificent creature who should never be bound, but allowed to fly free at will.
And when I let him do just that, he returns to me in exhilaration, every single time.
When I had made my decision in Greece, I has still harbored some doubts, despite the brave face that I had put on for him at the time.
Could I really give up on the idea of a traditional marriage for a while?
Was I the sort of person who could stay in a relationship that wasn’t bound by any promises?
All those questions had plagued me then…but not anymore.
In doing what I did, I have realized that Arnav isn’t the only one who has changed.
I have been altered, too.
The past four months have taught me that my priorities are now different, that what had once seemed like a compromise, now appeared to give me an unprecedented freedom as well.
Now that I wasn’t shackled by rules or a contract, I could allow myself to love him like I wanted to, to throw myself into this relationship with all my heart, knowing that he was doing the same.
Yes, this freedom has shown me a new side of myself, an unexplored facet of Khushi Arnav Raizada that I had never seen before.
Because I was the falcon’s mate, after all.
Our relationship is slowly maturing into one where trust and understanding play the most important roles, and I find that with each step taken along this path, my earlier decision is being validated.
And tonight, it is time to take the next step.
The drive home is accomplished in silence, and I step out of the car quickly when Dhruv pulls up by the front door. When we step inside the darkened hallway, Arnav pulls me to a stop.
¨Is everything alright?¨
I stare up at him, this complex man who is now my entire world.
And in his eyes, I see that new emotion…one that reassures me about what I am planning to do tonight.
I nod once, then head towards the kitchen.
¨I’m fine. Would you like a drink before heading upstairs?¨
¨Sure.¨
I turn on the kitchen lights, then walk over to the wine cooler before turning to him again.
¨What would you like?¨
¨Just some water, I think. I’ll get it…¨
¨Wait, I’ll do it.¨
He looks at me in surprise, but stops anyway.
We are separated by the length of the kitchen island, and I surreptitiously wipe my hands on my dress as I walk over to the water jug. Filling a tall glass with water, I walk over to him.
He takes it from me, but doesn’t raise it to his lips.
Instead, he stares at me as if he is trying to decode a mystery.
I gather all my courage and step away again, so that the island lies between us as before.
I look away for a moment, my heart racing as I brace myself for what I am going to do next.
When I look back up at him, he has placed the glass aside and is staring at me with a raised eyebrow.
I rush into speech.
¨Take off your jacket.¨
His eyes widen in shock.
¨What?¨
¨Your jacket, Mr. Raizada. Take it off, and then undo your tie as well.¨
¨Khushi? What are…¨
¨Just do it. Now.¨
He still looks puzzled, but slowly, his hand moves up to his tie, pulling at the knot before raising it above his head. He shrugs out of his jacket, then takes one step towards me.
¨No! You can’t come near me…there will be no touching.¨
¨What? I…¨
I see the instant that it dawns on him…as his own words come back to him.
I want you to be ready and wet for me…without my ever having touched you. I want you to reach that point just by the anticipation of what is going to happen between us. I want to look at you and know that you are ready to take me inside of you…
ameenchies
Nov 24, 2020 @ 14:07:01
Beautifully written story
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nashnini
Sep 28, 2018 @ 15:12:52
¨I’m trying to tell you that a promise can be made in other ways as well. Through a touch that promises to hold you through the night…and to catch you as you fall. Through a gaze that never wavers from you, even when there are a hundred other women in the vicinity who are more beautiful…that is a promise too, Arnav.¨
This para … So well descibes what’s important in a healthy marriage… Its is so very apt… so true … and so important in relationships .
Couldn’t agree more . The very essence of a healthy heart warming relationship.
Love this story .
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Bibliobibulus
Feb 25, 2016 @ 15:47:33
Loved seeing how they matured in their relationship, not needing to put labels to emotions, content to just live them. Beautifully written. Off to read the next one..
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scrapbooker10019
Oct 18, 2015 @ 15:38:06
Beautiful!
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bluemystique
Aug 30, 2014 @ 16:11:43
Perfect. Why classify something with one word, when you are not even sure what it means?
I loved that we get a glimpse of the progression of their marriage. Like I said before, it isn’t all sunshine and rainbows, but there are rainy days and snow storms as well, in a marriage, and I am glad that they came out through it all, unscathed.
Loved the step they took towards strengthening their marriage even more. Khushi’s trust in him has been restored, and his trust in himself too, I think. That he can still be all he was before, and still be a good husband that Khushi deserved.
And what a closure, Juhi! You don’t forget a thing, do you? The fantasy has made an appearance and how! Loved it! Loved it all!
Most of all, love that you leave us with a confidence that this couple can go through whatever comes their way, but the bond between them will never be broken. ❤
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vivacereveur
Jul 12, 2014 @ 20:17:04
“And this has led me to realize that my husband is just like an untamed falcon…a magnificent creature who should never be bound, but allowed to fly free at will.”
And then she realises she is her falcon mate. ❤ I don't know how to put my complements to you in words, but you sure know how to put yours to. This will be one of my long list of bookmarked lines. ❤ :*
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Anonymous
Jun 20, 2014 @ 12:14:24
Great epilogue…. A superb journey it was
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VYGA89
Jun 16, 2014 @ 05:56:02
beautiful
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VYGA89
Jun 16, 2014 @ 05:55:13
Awesome
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sanasafina
Jun 12, 2014 @ 09:22:10
Amazing, fabulous, mind blowing….
With the intensity of Arnav’s gaze and the anticipation of what is going to come made me hold my breath… The whole ambiance of party was so sensual even with so many people around them… And then Khushi fulfilled his fantacy as a gift… Loved them…
Their conversation about their relation and their feelings was heart felt… Love is still a puzzle between them but as khushi said love can’t define what they have between them….
Absolutely Loved it…
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sandeepika
Jun 09, 2014 @ 04:05:22
This was a heartwarming journey of two individuals now enjoying martial bliss! Fabulously written, hats off to you Juhi!!!
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sohara
Jun 08, 2014 @ 03:41:53
Oh Gosh, these two know how to make their sex life thrilling.
my eyes are popping out to see how they both made each other high without any foreplay.
Gonna miss the story so much.
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starrynight78
Jun 07, 2014 @ 15:38:56
I think my favorite part of this was that Arnav never said the love word. Because Arnav and Khushi have always had something stronger, something more potent than just love. And Shyam’s newfound relationship with Khushi is adorable as well.
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tvpal007
Jun 06, 2014 @ 23:52:46
An unconventional declaration of feelings.
This is so real.Two intelligent people sorting out their lives together and making room for each other…Hamesha:)
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misscrazyfanc
Jun 05, 2014 @ 17:24:27
Just speechless dear
Wat an amazing take
Pls don’t leave dear ..we will miss ur amazing arshi stories
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flowers4u14
Jun 05, 2014 @ 15:48:34
Brilliant ending….will miss it
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happytwinkle
Jun 05, 2014 @ 07:48:59
Beautiful one
Loved it
Thanks for the pm
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mishti17
Jun 05, 2014 @ 05:57:02
That was beautiful.. Their 1 year anniversary and Khushi’s gift for Arnav.. ❤ They are finally ready to move forward in their lives with each other… 😀 Anjali and Shyam adopting a baby.. Thats great.. ^_^ Off to read Arnavs side.. 😉
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Ragii
Jun 05, 2014 @ 05:16:46
Happy anniversary….the way their relation matured was marvelous…….it was splendid job dear……
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yoga1237
Jun 05, 2014 @ 01:19:01
Happy Anniversary to Arnav and Khushi………..its been a year ………..with bitter sweet moments………………….Awesome part
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Dreamymaya
Jun 04, 2014 @ 12:58:00
I was wondering where would Juhi add that old fantasy of Arnav’s…Great weaving of that dream into the anniversary…wow! And Arnav’s confessions were truly touching, honest and sweet!!
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SUDHA GUDA
Jun 04, 2014 @ 10:12:35
Juhi Khushi’s POV epilogue is amazing
Loved the way Khushi’s bonding grown with Nani and Anjali in four months after coming from Greece and loved how her bonding improved with Shyam also
Loved how Anjali had thrown a party for Arnav and Khushi’s first anniversary and loved how Arnav’s eyes are only on Khushi through out the party ……………. and it reminds me Jaadu hai Nasha hai sequence.
Anjali and Shyam are going to adopt a kid from India and hope they will be happy forever with their bundle of joy
Loved how after returning from Greece Arnav slowly changed again into a person with whom Khushi fell in love and loved how they made progress in their relationship.
Loved how Khushi made his biggest fantasy into true ………………… and it is hot, sensual and sizzling
Loved Arnav and Khushi’s convo in the last part of update
Loved Arnav’s words when Khushi asked him whether he is talking about love
“Do you know something, Khushi? I don’t think that there was ever a “think” to begin with.”
Am I? I don’t know if that’s what it’s called, Khushi. I don’t know if that’s the name for this need, this desire to be with you at all times. I don’t know if that’s the name for this fear that grips me when I imagine life without you. Is that what all this is? I don’t really know the name…what I do know is that it is powerful…more powerful than lust, or desire…more powerful than my need for control…it’s stronger than anything I’ve ever known.¨
Loved how Arnav and Khushi wanted to keep both the contracts as a reminder for future and loved their convo of becoming parents
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seetanaips
Jun 04, 2014 @ 07:59:07
after 4 months their marriage is on track again
wow mind blowing intimacy!!!!
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Anonymous
Jun 03, 2014 @ 23:44:05
Superb epilogue dear loved it
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arshifan4life
Jun 03, 2014 @ 17:22:41
Amazing update u gave relationships a new meaning that is different from what I actually believed
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angeldream14
Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:21:03
loved it
so they had come a long way
sometime love is jst a word but a relationship means more than that
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archmink
Jun 03, 2014 @ 14:41:28
Just love? Naahh..,
It was beautiful … Made me realize few things in my life as well … I could tell this story is short of counseling for me … Very very maturely described emotions, feelings , the whole shaadi ..,,, I could come again and again read it to understand my shaadi in a better way …
Thank you for sharing beautiful story 🙂
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-Xpress-
Jun 03, 2014 @ 12:35:21
Loved it..nice
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aquagal01
Jun 03, 2014 @ 10:45:52
This was a very nice update. They have come a long way not only with respect to each other but also with the family. Khushi has found a loving sister in anjali and shyam too has opened up a bit. It was good to see them like that.
Finally Khushi fulfilled his fantasy. 😉
Now off to read Arnav’s Epilogue…
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anju4566
Jun 03, 2014 @ 09:31:59
awesome as always. very insightful journey of human emotions
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drunkiiebabe
Jun 03, 2014 @ 02:00:50
Awesome epilogue
Loved it ❤
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dumas001
Jun 02, 2014 @ 23:56:58
loved the epilogue from khushi pov she made his dream come through loved that they waited till the reformed the bond that was broken loved that he waited and respected her wishes loved how she had him panting and loved how he turned it around it on her loved it hopefully kids will be in their future
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Pankti
Jun 02, 2014 @ 17:48:24
Beautiful epilogur from Khushi’s side.
“¨I couldn’t ever say no to you, Khushi. Don’t you know that by now? I would give you the world, if only you’d ask.”
This words sum up all that Arnav feels for her..and its so so powerful. You are right, cannot be defined by just one word. It needs an entire ocean of emotions to be feeling this way.
I’m glad they are where they are, it was beautiful to read their journey together with all ups and downs and how they faced the challenge together.
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rithika
Jun 02, 2014 @ 14:36:31
I have wiped my tears and made peace with Shaadi being over. Ok, so now I shall comment on Khushi’s epilogue. Which is my last comment on Shaadi. Oh no. And the tears have started again.
1. She made his fantasy come true!
2. If I were married to Arnav, I would too. I mean how does one not want to make Mr shaatir dimaag’s fantasy come true!
3. That scene was so sexy!
4. But they didn’t have sex for 4 months? How did they keep their hands off each other?
5. But I get it because they needed to work on other aspects of their relationship.
6. Mr and Mrs Raizada make it a year! *applause*
7. I love how Khushi and Shyam’s relationship has evolved.
8. It’s also wonderful that Anjali and Shyam are planning to adopt!
9. He was happy when he thought she was pregnant! See, he was in love then too and if he hadn’t been an ass about it, they wouldn’t have had to go through the heartbreak they did go through. Though I suspect it made them stronger.
10. And here is to a fabulous story! *applause, standing ovation wala*
11. 😀
So back to crying.
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1chilly
Jun 02, 2014 @ 14:16:22
Lovely epilogue. Khushi and Arnav now have that perfect relationship where one lives for the other. Also liked how Khushi and Anjali have come so close. Shyam too has forgotten his misgivings towards Khushi and has accepted her as part of Arnav’s life. When such love exists, what use is a contract!
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Ekta (IF:Luvbug)
Jun 02, 2014 @ 13:25:06
oh wow tht was a lovely update/…. im short of words here… i might come bk n update this comment 🙂
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cj-the-greatest
Jun 02, 2014 @ 12:01:18
Gorgeous story. the English was actually too strong for me but I loved it nonetheless. I actually kept a dictionary with me to understand some difficult words. It was very educational for me. I loved the way you characterized khushi. She was a strong independent highly educated woman but she still had her traditional values. I loved this foreign returned girl with some desi sans kar. I applaud you for writing something so appealing and educational (for me). I read it in a go. I will read it again and again to learn new words. I don’t think I have enough words to describe how fortunate and glad I am to be able to read this. Thanks for writing this. Eagerly waiting for Arnavs epilogue.
P.s. I would love to see ArShi kids in the epilogue. I wouldn’t mind a buddha arnav either
P.p.s. I apologize if my mediocre comment offended you.
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cupcakzdps
Jun 02, 2014 @ 11:08:28
fantastic updts
loved it
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shilpi28march
Jun 02, 2014 @ 10:39:08
awesome update!
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snoopy84
Jun 02, 2014 @ 09:21:29
Awesome update finally everything is going right.
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ramyavc616
Jun 02, 2014 @ 08:54:31
Juhi,great epilogue.Falcon was set free,the magnanimous,proud bird returns to his love,though,he starts hiccuping if someone mentions the dreaded L word,how ASR has grown,the abstaining part was too good,loved it as I am Arnav fan,he was oh so delicate even after 2 shaadis in the show( what the)waiting for his epilogue,hope to see Mr.Raizada surprising his wifey at work( probably at Stanford cos she loves bhak bhaking buckets of free advice to ppl,professor maybe)thanks,Juhi for this wonderful journey
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Khushi02
Jun 02, 2014 @ 08:05:01
Please can we have kids or a pregnant Khushi in Arnav’s epilogue???
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